The thing about a manic episode, it feels like your mind has been sucked up into a tornado made of fire, razor blades and salt. No way to tell which way is what or when it will stop.
Utterly no control. Panic. Rage. Elation. All at once. Complete confusing and a break with reality.
Everything and everyone is running too slow. Flow of ideas hits you like a tidal wave and you forget just as quick. Feeling like you can do anything or that God has empowered you.
Can’t sleep. Can’t eat. No need for it.
Once it is over, finally; total burn out.
Everything is to bright and loud. Complete exhaustion no matter how much you sleep or rest. No coordination. Physical weakness. Mind foggy and depressed.
I want off this ride.
I understand. I truly believe mania is in the realm of insanity---or at least close to it. Depression is tormenting but mania can be very very dangerous.
ReplyDeleteI completely agree. The majority of my manic episodes are rage filled. Uncontrollable rage that gets set off by little things. I think I have had maybe a half dozen euphoric episodes.
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