Shoulder Update

So, I had an MRI done on my right shoulder to get a final and definite picture of the problem. And it turns out there are no tears anywhere. YAY! So no surgery for me. However, the muscle/tendon is frayed or whatever and there is some sort of calcium deposit that either rubs or presses up against something else.

Nothing that can really be done about it. However, there is one treatment which is my best/only option at this time. And I guess it is very similar to whatever is used to break up kidney stones. They think the reason this works is due to it theoretically creating more blood vessels and thereby allowing healing to happen.

This is where it gets really funny. It costs around $260/treatment and I need three treatments, so the total cost would be around $800. And of course, Alberta Blue Cross does not cover it. I'm shocked....not.

Seriously, Alberta Blue Cross is expensive and so god damn useless. I'm so happy that I get new insurance the end of October when my probation at work is up.

Shoulder Injury

So, I have been dealing with a shoulder injury for the last number of years. I've gone to countless doctors who have told me to take advil/aleve, rest it, ice it, physio and whatever else.




Well, now I'm 28, not old I know, and I have a torn rotator cuff.



My Supraspinatus Tendon (or muscle or whatever it is) has a thickness tear and a width tear of greater than 50% with a retraction of up to 8mm. I've been talking to some friends and well, they all think I am going to end up needing surgery.

Wooooo.

I'll find out for sure on the 27th when I see the specialist.

What is courage

I posted this to my facebook:





I have been seeing more posts showing up about how Caitlyn Jenner is a freak or how she is not courageous. Sorry to break it to you, but courage comes in so many different forms. I want people to imagine being in a body that doesn't match your mind or soul and you finally get the courage to make that change to make the outside match the inside. Now, imagine that while being a very well known person who is known for doing something while in the wrong body. You make that change and then the public rips at you calling you "a freak" or "disgusting" but you ignore them and you make the stand for the younger generation to not have to face the same bullshit bigotry that you are facing.


How is that not courage? Tell me. Not having much concern for yourself but caring for those how are abused and battered for the same reason that you are. Hmmm, sounds similar to a battlefield doesn't it? Courage comes in different forms. My definition of it could be completely different than yours.


I've been told that because I keep moving forward and dealing with my Bipolar 1 Disorder that I'm courageous. Do I see it that way? Nope. Ask me when depression has me flat on my back contemplating why I should continue existence. OR, when I'm in a manic phase and I can do no wrong.


So frankly, if you are one of those people who are being bigots and saying so and so isn't courageous because of X, I ask that you politely go screw yourself and unfriend me. So, fuck you and have a nice day.